For someone who desperately craves organization, routine, and structure, I’m embarrassed to admit that this is supposed the “February” blog entry. Call me crazy, but March always sneaks up on me because February is such a short month.
Farming has taught me to rely on God and trust His plan for structure in my life. That is a really hard lesson that I continually fight to learn every day. I want the routine to be perfectly planned out by me. I want my Daily To-Do List to be uninterrupted and finished before I put my head on the pillow at night. I also want to be a sane human-being and therefore my To-Do never happens that way.
All through my life, I’ve had experiences where things don’t go as planned, but I don’t remember leaning on God as much then as I do now. I know I feel differently because I have four little ones waiting on my next move, when my routine gets thrown out of whack. I feel like now I’m utterly helpless unless I ask for God’s guidance and help with the curve balls that get thrown my way.
The daily ins and outs of motherhood, provide enough curveballs on their own, but imagine you are cleaning up spilled milk and you hear your child say, “Mommy one of the pigs is in the garden!” Ahhhhhhh! You’ve gotta be kidding me!!!! (There may have been inappropriate words said too) Plus of all four farmers, you are the only one home at the moment! Each of the four of us has had a similar situation happen to us, when we were the only one on the farm for the day. It happens. So I asked one child to finish cleaning up the milk, could another one throw together some quick sandwiches for lunch, and I got in my coveralls and put a pig back into her home.
We’ve also had instances where one break in routine will not just ruin lunchtime, but will take up the rest of your day to fix. Laundry waits for tomorrow. Dishes wait for tomorrow. Emails wait for tomorrow. Even school waits for tomorrow. A clean house waits for…not really sure when that will ever get done. It can be beyond frustrating.
Even though most of you reading this don’t have the troubles of pigs getting into the garden, you have other struggles and trials that test your patience throughout the day! They may look different, but we’re all the same. We all struggle with something!
With those struggles, the difference is in who you lean on for comfort. There is one source of comfort who will never fail us. He knows what tomorrow holds, because He created tomorrow. He’s your creator! He’s the Almighty God. This jump headfirst into farming has pushed me to rely on God for my comfort more than I think I ever have in my entire life!
My “curveball days” always turn out differently depending on how I respond to them.
Response A: This is a situation I can fix on my own and I don’t need any help.
Response B: God, only You know how to fix this and I can’t do it on my own. I need Your help!
I promise you that I don’t always jump to Response B, but the days I do I feel His grace and mercy! Which is what we all need!